I am going to try.
Saying “I am going to try” is better than not speaking it or just not trying...am I right?!?
I was invited to bike through Italy for a month toting my kids along and raising money for a great cause. When I flew to England for a training weekend I was met by others that were insanely physically fit, someone who trained with Lance Armstrong for fun, someone who ran ultra-marathons, someone who owned an outdoor fitness company. ME....oh I had never run a 5k, I had just had my 4th baby in 3 years and voila, here I was.
I remember going up to my room so many times throughout this weekend and crying. Crying because “I didn’t fit it” “I wasn’t qualified” “I’m wasn't at all physically fit” “I was a fraud”. Oh, the feelings of inadequacy were so overwhelming.
How do I say thank you for inviting me but tell them I’m not capable?...sigh. I flew back home and knew I had to make a CHOICE. I could try to start training, continue running my company and be a mom to 4 babies 3 years old and under....or I could give up and not try.
I CHOSE to try!!! I bought a road bike and started riding 30 minutes a day, then 1 hour, then 1.5 hours, then 2, 3 hours. Sometimes I rode 5 or more hours a day. I flew to Switzerland where we started the 5 week endurance challenge and decided to try!!! Guess what....every day was painful, every day was insanely difficult, every day I wanted to quit....but I didn’t!!!! I was capable, I was qualified, I was enough, I wasn’t a fraud!!!
The moral of the story is... choose to TRY!!!! Dare to have courage for yourself, you might just surprise yourself of what you're capable of. I believe courage is a choice, our choices create our destiny!!!! I’m rooting for you!! “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” Phillipians 4:13